Waitlist #44

I knew I should have NOT apply. I was accepted to many schools and was set on the east coast. I tested my luck with a more difficult school here in the west and I was invited to interview and BAM wait-listed since Feb. So I kept my hopes up despite having no clue how many are on this list or whether these people were all desperate like me or do I even have a chance or should I give up. Holding off plans for east coast and hoping and wishing that I can be close to home. Well it all came crashing down today.

The official ranking was suppose to be in mid-May but guess they were early this year. From forums, it said that you have better knowledge after second deposit which is mid-May. I HATE how the stupid school led me on. I think wait-list is total BS if there is like at least 44 people on it, hopefully probably more fml. It's the stupid school's way of ensuring a full class if people drop out. The class is 90 max so there is no way 44 will drop. My only hope is if a good amount on wait-list and class drop but that seems impossible.

It's a tricky situation for me as if I'm moving across the country I NEED to plan. Get a car, find apartment, find roommate, pack a whole lot of clothes, buy a whole lot of new stuff. I am terrified of the snow and living without any family or friends. I do love the school and think I'll enjoy my time there but just will miss my family, friends and mostly le bf. Good experience for me to grow up but I like my bubble! West coast would have been much easier transition, just a road trip away...sigh

I think things happen for a reason. Like during high school, I was only accepted to my 3rd choice and was devastated. But my experience there allowed me to be closer to my best friends (or not), find my bf even tho I got my heart broken, meet some amazing people and had fun during college. Not that I won't anywhere else but I am glad to have met my bf so that was worth it. I hope this college would give me an unforgettable experience and land me a job.

But east coast.... man, 3 hour time difference isn't cool. Guess it's time to load up on snow gear.