Summer Love

Summer is my favorite season. You generally feel happier and excited becuase the sun is out and it is time to live your life.  As probably the last summer where I really can relax, I am trying to squeeze as much out of California before I head east. I hate waitlist btw. I wish they just reject me. By now I am now 99% east coast.

I was talking to my bf about things that I need to see or do before I miss it too much, especially when it's summer and it's really the moment to go crazy. I am so afriad of the cold! The list is actually pretty big but I am going to focus on things I can do and want to do before I leave and will not get on the other side. Although I'm pretty sure there would be opportunities to explore and find things I'll love too.

1. Smittens ice cream, heck any ice cream is fine when it's scorching hot. But my love for salted caramel forces me to drive out to SF any day
2. Take pika pika. I love sticky pics and decorating them. I know I can do it on my phone but I always liked having a solid copy to keep as memories
3. Go to museum on Bank of America free day. Probably will miss June's free day. Maybe July
4. House of prime rib. The salad is divine. I might find better but it's unforgettable
5. Really good sushi. I doubt I'll be near really good sushi so I should eat my fill soon
6. Really good Chinese food. I know there's a chinatown but I tried it and I miss mines. Sigh
7. See friends. I will miss them so much but at the same time I'm excited to make new ones. So bittersweet
8. Waterworld. It would be nice to have some fun in the sun right?
9. Go to LA/Vegas. Probably will not happen as I will literally have no time to go but I will dream of these places until I come back
10. Napa. I really want to eat at Bouchon but since NY has one I guess if I'm desperate I can drive 
11. Party hard for my early bday, bf bday and farewell party. I don't know if it includes alcohol or just semi-formal dinner because I'm too old.

Well that's it for now. There is always restaurants I want to try but nothing I'll miss yet. I think I need to do more summery things to do like go to beaches than stay at home watching How I Met Your Mother or playing games all summer.

Back to financial issues. I been not spending as much and I only purchase two items. The rest of my money probably went to food. Pat on back except one cost $222. fml. My mom did get me some stuff at Ann Taylor. About $30 for a skirt and top. Guess I'll add it to my spending.

Bought this top at Marshall for $11. I love big tops and I don't have anything lavender. I think it's cute.

This has not arrived yet, my maybe Marc by Marc Jacobs Natasha shoulder bag for $222. Still debating if I will keep it or maybe sell it? I was attracted to silver hardware as gold is kind of tacky for me. I know gold is mega popular and I have gold items but if I had a choice I will always choose silver. I got it at net-a-poter. One of the most deadly shopping sites for designer duds. The discounts in their sales are to die for and no tax and free shipping/return!?! I wanted a cross body bag as it's more "safe" to travel with.... not that I will be but I can always prepare right?  It is harder to yank something over your body vs a tote you are weakly holding or just hanging on your shoulders. I also eyed a Miu Miu, Mulberry bag but over budget so I'm hoping this will satisfy me.  I know I should stop buying but ugh it's an addiction. The Valentino sale was also very tempting because I am a sucker for bows.

Well I think it's a good thing that I been pickier about buying items vs buying cuz it looks good at the moment. But sadly my wallet isn't that happy. Doubt it would be happy when I invest in a DSLR. I don't know how much I have lying around anymore... sigh


Today's debt $263 fml
Total: $335

25 Things I’ve Learned In My 20s

  So I saw this online and it really really applies to me now at 23 almost 24... fml. I can literally name situations that these happened to me. Some occurred before my 20s but hey 20s are suppose to be some fun times before you become an adult.

 

25 Things I’ve Learned In My 20s

1. You can’t date a jerk and expect to turn them into a good person. Jerks are fully committed to being unpleasant. Those brief moments of tenderness they give you are designed to trip you up and give you false hope. It’s best to stay away altogether.
• Dated a jerk at 18 and you can imagine how it turned out. Learned to just stay away from the jerks and never fall for their tricks and go for the nice guy :)
2. The rumors are true: your metabolism does slow down as you get older! That means if you’re still eating whatever you want, there’s a good chance you’ll start to gain an awkward amount of weight. It won’t be too drastic but your clothes will start to hang differently on your body and you’ll feel an overall feeling of unattractiveness. Start to be conscious of what you eat and strive to live a healthier lifestyle if you want to get your teen body back. (Let’s be real though, that might not ever come back.)
• I guess this doesn't apply that much to me YET. (knock on wood) I hover between the same weight. I definitely been gaining some but it doesn't show. Got to start exercising more often and eat less junk!
3. You’re going to lose touch with a lot of your friends. With some people, it will be expected but with others it will feel like a punch to the stomach. No friendship is truly safe in your twenties. You’re undergoing so many personal and professional changes that there’s bound to be some casualties along the way. Don’t worry though. You’ll end up with the ones that matter. If someone’s no longer in your life, it’s for a reason.
1. I know I lost touch with some high school friends. I'm trying hard now to keep in touch with my college friends but that would probably be harder during the next four years. High school is such an awkward stage whereas college everyone is just nice and chill. I do have some best friends and that won't just change. Even if things aren't as great as it used to, as life likes to screw you, I would be there for them in a heartbeat. I don't doubt my love for them
4. You’ll be jealous of everyone who’s more successful than you. That’s okay. Just transfer that jealousy into something productive, like working really hard so you can one day eclipse them and make them feel jealous of YOU.
• I am totally jealous of all my friends who have jobs and are successful because I am still going to school and making $0.00000. I hope I can make them jealous but I really don't care. Money is to provide a better life for my family and friends. Not to ruin relationships. 
5. You’ll question every decision you make and never feel completely certain that you made the right choice. It’s pointless to wonder though. You’re here now so you might as well make it be the right decision.
• YEP. I am already feeling like I made all the wrong choices about applying to schools and my choice. I am having a hard time convincing myself that I'm like moving east. I guess I will spend the next few days accepting this and start getting excited for my new life.
6. You’re going to give your heart to a few people who don’t deserve it. Then, one day you’ll come to your senses and ask them to give it back.
• I did and it hurts but I got right back up. I guess it can apply to friends or even family that don't deserve your love too.  I will take it as a life lesson and learn from it.
7. You’ll see your parents get older. You’ll come home during Christmas break and see new lines developing on their faces. One day it’ll just hit you that your parents are old and going to die. There’s nothing you can do about it, besides treat them with kindness and visit as much as your budget permits.
• I don't think I SEE this yet. I left home but came back weekly. I do see my grandparents get old and that really made me care more. I try to be there more often but at the moment I cannot wait to move out. But I know this will apply to me soon.
8. You’ll have a boss who makes you feel like you’re nothing. It doesn’t have to be in a Devil Wears Prada way. The cruelty can be much more subtle. Don’t let them get to you though. They have no idea who the hell you really are and you’re probably going to have their job someday so…
• Nope, not yet. I hope I don't have a diabolic boss in my field. It's professional right?
9. Doing drugs is fun until it’s not, until it starts affecting your life in negative ways and leaves you feeling guilty and wrecked. If that happens, you should stop doing them.
• I never do drugs. My ex taught me not to use it or I'll end up like him. No offense, but it really screws you up and make bad choices in life that end up hurting other people... like me. I think it's disgusting anyways
10. You’re going to puke in public. It’s fine. No one cares. Just puke.
• I did it once at 3AM. NEVER again.
11. You’ll know how to make twenty dollars last an entire week because you spent almost all of your paycheck on groceries at Whole Foods and drunk cab rides. This lesson in frugality will serve you well.
• Already do. I have friends during college years who buy hundreds of dollars of groceries and expect us to split it. I learn say no and cook for myself. It's just ridiculous how expensive things are these days. My bf and I currently try to cook meals at home and watch movies at home instead. Though he insist we eat out more before we leave but I know that I need to practice cheap eating. I never really notice it, but I met a girl who really struggle with living because their family isn't well off. I know my family isn't the richest out there but we get bills paid and enough to splurge on clothes and junk. Even so, I am a cheapskate so I guess this doesn't apply to me that badly except I do need to buy less and SAVE since tuition sucks.
12. You’re going to betray your convictions. You’re going to feel shame. You’re going to continue to put yourself in situations that aren’t good for you. And then, slowly but surely, it will become less frequent. It might not ever go away completely but it won’t be as bad. In the meantime, stop shame spiraling about it. It gets you nowhere.
• I think I did it when I was dating my ex. I really did things I would have never done and feel guilty. I learn the hard way and my friends and family forgave me. I guess I need to learn to look at the brighter things in life like how I have wonderful families and friends.
13. Loving yourself is hard. Hating yourself is harder.
• I hate my weak self and will need to become stronger.
14. You’re going to hook up with someone who you would never touch in the daylight sober. Just don’t freak out too much about it. Consider it to be your good deed for the day.
• I hope this doesn't happen. I am happy with my bf
15. You’re going to have people in your life who are toxic. They may say that they love you, they may say that they have your back, but they don’t. Get rid of them.
• I think I know of them but at the moment I will do nothing. I hate confrontations and I rather see the good in people and try to understand why they may be toxic. I have one friend who had it hard her whole life and nothing goes her way so she's a bitch but I will still love her. I have enough love to give even if they don't deserve it. Getting hurt is a different story 
16. You’ll have moments with someone that are so intense, it’ll feel like you’ve been electrocuted back to life. You’ll hold on to these moments for a long time. They’ll give you hope when you’re going through the motions.
• I admit my ex gave me this feeling and my bf makes me feel good everyday. I am just glad that I have someone who has my back now and I can say anything to. They do exist. Every time my bf comes pick me up I get the most giddy feeling that sometimes it feels like the first date.
17. You’ll always care about your first love. That doesn’t make you crazy, it just makes you human. When relationships end, it’s not so cut and dry. You carry everyone you’ve ever loved into every relationship thereafter.
• I don't care as much anymore just because he cheated and broke my heart. I do wonder about him sometimes. It is HARD getting over first love and it was even harder having him come back to make me emo. I am glad I went for the nice guy ;)
18. You’ll enter your twenties as a fashion disaster and (hopefully) leave them looking fantastic. If you don’t know how to put yourself together by then, I really don’t know what to tell you.
• I admit, I bought some random clothing. My style is SLOWLY moving away from graphic tees to plain tees and more professional. I love fashion though so maybe some things won't change. I do think I look good tho.
19. You’ll realize that the Internet can be a cruel son of a bitch but, you know, www.whatever.com.
• I learn not to trust the internet. Do more research first through multiple searches and learn to pick out the right answer.
20. So much of what you think matters doesn’t actually matter at all. It’s kind of rude. Like, thanks for making me believe in things that are ultimately so inconsequential, you jerk.
• At the moment family, friends, bf, job is the most important. The only one that would change is probably job/money. I know it's not the most important but makes the others more happy. I guess ultimately as long as you matter not else will.
21.  You’ll treat someone terribly. Whether it to be a lover or your friend, there’ll be someone whose feelings you take for granted. We focus too much on whether or not someone is hurting us. The reality is that we might actually be the one who’s hurting someone.
• I totally AGREE. I feel like I'm not the best friend or girlfriend but I do try to reach out. Especially now that I'm moving away. I will work harder on this and try to be a good friend/gf/daughter. I need to be calmer and accept things that come my way.
22. Doing “grown-up things” doesn’t make you a grown up. Shopping for housewares, buying a plant, embracing domesticity — these things don’t create maturity. If you’re still a baby who hasn’t figured things out, you’ll remain a baby, no matter how many times you pay your rent on time.
• I totally agree. I think I will never truly grow up until my kids are old.
23. Don’t force yourself into loving anyone. If it’s not working in the beginning, it’s probably not going to work ever.
• I think being a hopeless romantic makes it hard. I really cannot hate someone because I try to look for the good and give benefit of the doubt.
24. You are so lucky to have everything that you have. Stop crying about an unreturned text message and get some perspective.
• I admit I do get a little sad that messages get ignored. This really makes me think that I should focus on the better things in my life so that this crap is irreverent.
25. Don’t go too long without having sex. Ever.
    
    • Does it apply to a virgin? I am curious but just not 100% ready. I'm glad my bf is patient. Just I feel so insecure about myself that it is affecting me as a person. 
    
    
    
    
    In conclusion, I need to keep growing and learning. Learn to love myself with my flaws and all and love others too. I will continue this journey called life and hope I will get a happy ending.
    The Secret is to think positive and appreciate the little things that make the bad ones seem obsolete.

Moody

I guess it's just one of those days (or the time of the month) where you feel like nothing is going right and there is so much uncertainty in life that makes you want to cry. I been in such a bad mood that I keep yelling and crying... and I don't know what's wrong. So many things are going on and I really don't want to face it. I want to be stronger. I know what needs to be done yet there is no motivation. I am probably in denial of all the changes to come. I hope in the end I become a better person but for now I will to hide in my bed and forget my worries

Draw Something

I love this game! I was a total addict but people stopped playing so I only play w my bf sometimes now. These are some that I drew and saved. Totally regret not saving all of them! I might have more... It's all drawn with fingers. I end up buying a stylus but I get too lazy to use it. Enjoy!!

 I am so proud of my Golem! I spent a long time doing this since fingers are not your best friend!

Ode to chocolate

One thing I feel very guilty about is chocolate. Is it normal to have a crazy amount of chocolate constantly at my side? Hm I think so. So today, I'm going to share my love for chocolate through random pictures on my computer. 

Oh and my preference for chocolate is always DARK . My prefer range is around 70% plus. Love fruit in them like raspberry and strawberry and pretty much most berries. (not really blueberry). Fleur de Sel caramel is my  new fav. Ganache, hazelnut are delicious! Favorite brand is Godiva but will eat anything yummy. Another fav is Recchiuti.

Made these strawberry chocolate mochi for my mommy's birthday yesterday and realize I have been paying a whole lot of money for mochi fml. They were so easy to make I feel cheated by Japanese food now. I LOVE Godiva dark chocolate dip strawberries and according to my bf I seem to be happier eating the chocolate than I'll ever be with him. I probably have a picture of those Godiva strawberries somewhere but couldn't find it.

 Chocolate souffle. I am on a roll. Again, realized how much money these French restaurants are earning from me fml. If I can make it and it taste good, I refuse to ever pay for it unless I have some terrible craving and I'm too lazy make it. I made this for my mommy's birthday as well since she loves souffle and it turned out very yummy!

Bf went to Recchiuti without me! :( but came back with their hot chocolate so I guess I can't complain. It's extremely rich even for me but I still love it! I prefer their chocolate like the Fleur de Sel! Sigh I was quite sad bf didn't buy me chocolate. It is not too expensive if I recall and they have all these cool chocolate like wines and tea. Located in SF!!! Probably you can order it online

 I got this at Trader Jo after seeing the world dark chocolate. It was delicious as well

 I wanted to make dark chocolate salted caramel but turns out the recipe I was using was for truffles. Tasted not bad. It was just Ghirardelli chocolate 

Ahhh Christopher Elbow. Their chocolate are crazy expensive but godly beautiful. But very yummy! I want to try their hot chocolates

There was a groupon or living social deal for an online store and made bf buy for me for vday (No shame). Plainly too beautiful to eat. Chocolate was so so because it was a mix of milk white and dark.

I think it was Vday and I also had the bf buy it. AHAHA. Maybe it was Mother's day? I don't remember. @ Paris Baguette, San Jose

Ah Schuberts! One of my fav SF bakeries. This was a blackberry chocolate mousse I think. 

Hello Godiva! Yay! These days I just spend crazy money on their limited edition. It was back few springs ago and The blackberry one was divine!

 I loveee vita soy and I was overjoyed to find dark chocolate in HK. It was gooooood!

Recchiuti again. The lovely hot chocolate with fresh marshmellow and my beloved chocolate. I miss it so much!

Flavored Kit Kat. I love love love dark chocolate kit kats but why AMERICA do you have to make it limited edition? Thank god for Japan. Too bad so damn expensive. Luckily I found an European source AKA Cost Plus World Market. The strawberry is too sweet for me and green tea too but I actually love green tea so I can take the sweetness

Tea room in San Mateo. Had to try their salted caramel dark chocolate.  It was okay but I guess I like dark chocolate salted caramels. Heh

I thought these were so cute! Too bad even more expensive than designer chocolate so all I did was stare. Sf downtown

 More Christopher Elbow. <3

 Unrelated but soooooo cute! Hehe. Android toys that I totally adore. I even started a blog on them but these days too lazy. http://android-365.blogspot.com/

 Mmmm lava cake. I recalled it sucked. I need to try a recipe.

Baby got this for me~ It's great to have a bf who supports my chocolate-ism. God it's good too bad messy to eat

I sadly (or happily) have more pics somewhere but please go out and eat some chocolate!!! Gives you endorphins and make you happy! I seriously justify myself for eating chocolate every time. Especially that time of the month. I get sooo guilty afterwards >.< I think I am more willing to splurge and spend on chocolate. Have you seen the price of Godiva? I use to get a box like every other week and kill it so fast it's not even funny

Moral of the day: EAT CHOCOLATE~ 

Dreaming

I used to, hmm back in 2003, kept a dream journal. I was having de ja vu dreams, like I dream a scene, like in a car, and a VERY similar thing happens in real life, like the same exact scene with the same people and someone said the same thing even though the outcome was different..... It was hard keeping track since you forget your dreams and takes a lot of strength to stay awake and record it but I guess I'm into these dream stuff.

 I do a lot of reading on google and take ideas how to interpret my own dreams. Some people say don't think too much of your dreams but there are people who say that dreams is your subconscious and probably is like your intuition/six sense in life. I guess for girls it's like WE KNOW if your bf is lying or being unfaithful or we see signs of things going wrong. In other words sensitive to things. I knew something was very very wrong with my previous relationship and kept feeling very upset and unsettling and it turned out it was cuz he cheated fml. Or see my friends having problems just by the way they are acting and little signs. I guess it's like I feel/sense people being different and subconsciously know something is going on even if I can't always pinpoint it. Anyways, I feel the same way with dreams. They may lead to some truth in your life and maybe get to know you and other people around you better through a deeper part of your brain. Before I sleep stuff I been thinking about or ignoring usually pops up in my dream so I feel that dreams are very in sync with your life. Well I think I gave up somewhere along the line but these days I remember my dreams pretty well. And I had this crazy dream.

So I just came back from a party and thinking back I think this was trigger by my friend. I'll talk about the dream and interpret my way. It's all just random interpretations but hope you think a little deeper about your dreams.

So in my dream, my friend say A, was drunk and he starts getting too close and starts kissing my neck and hugging me. I try to push him away and part of me likes it. Guess a little attraction IRL. He tries to kiss me and I push him away. Then he is with another friend, a girl E and E tries to get close but I get jealous and tell her to go away. Then A starts flirting with me and giving me a lot of attention. Tries to get close and we have some conversation I cannot remember but opening up to each other. We played some iPhone game together. We were at the flirty stage of a relationship where we are giving hints and playing games. More like he was totally in love with me (haha) and I was hesitating but wasn't saying no. WELL my bf is in the dream. So I feel super guilty in the dream the whole time and I thought I catch my bf buying me Vday items. (yah it isn't even close to Vday but just go with it) But I was mistaken and was sad. Then I see A and my bf together really friendly and they were getting me stuff. BF getting me a card and stuff animal and A getting me a sandwich and is super sweet. I was like why would he go for a taken girl? And he's like he can't help it and feels miserable but still want to try to get with me. I keep feeling he will give up since I'm taken but he is persistent and I won't 100% reject him becasue I like this attention and passionate determination. So then my friends realize I'm interested in him too and E comments no wonder you didn't want me to get close. I feel so confused and miserable in my dream and wake up.

So it's not the first time I have these types of dreams of cheating. I always never kiss another guy in my dream no matter how tempted I am. And I will feel like cheating but never do like most is hugging extremely close. I am certain in dreamland I know I am a taken girl and won't go any further than kissing but is tempted by the flirting and attention and FEEL TOTALLY GUILTY the whole time.

Google searches on cheating dreams will tell you your subconscious is telling you A) unsatisfied B) unhappy in relation C) Wish fulfillment dream (as in something you want but will never have, like dating a celebrity). D) you like the person. The list goes on and you can look it up if you are interested.

My interpenetration: I know it's not wish fulfillment since this is someone I know. Probably a mix of ABD for me. So lets go back to reality. During the party my friends and I were messing with drunk A. I admit I am minimally attracted to him since he is tall and not bad looking but I know I love and have a bf. So he got really drunk or we say "wing" and us girls were abusing. Well anyways I was being nice by rubbing his back and then he lies on my lap. I guess a little spark or closeness clicked. Not to mention that there was always on my part a feeling of attraction but like very minimal. I feel some from him too. Not that I will do anything and he will either but I guess if I was single I would be interested. Usually my intuition isn't that off. So that's D working in my dream.

So back to my relationship. I am pretty satisfied and happy (tho we got into a bad fight recently and have what I like to call scars on my heart) with my bf. I been with him for like 4+ years now and we may fight, argue but make up and work hard to keep us together by appreciating each other. We talk about the future, plans, thoughts and ideas. So what's wrong? I guess I always feel like I jumped into the relationship too quickly. I missed the chasing stage where we flirt and do silly things for affection. Some say it's the best part of the relationship, playing games and just have crazy attraction. My bf was probably a rebound. I was very hurt in my previous relationship and felt emo for like half a year. My ex played these "games" with me and got me super stress, unhappy, happy and confused. I agreed to go out w my bf even though I was not 100% over with my ex to get away from him and it was the best thing I did. It's not that I didn't like my bf back then, he was a great guy and a great friend (totally would friendzone), I just didn't feel ready and he was patient but I was so cold and heartless to him. I gave in to his persistence, how much he liked me and to get over my ex. I never wanted to get hurt again and he was one of the nice guys that girls don't usually date but I guess he felt safe. Those are not good reasons to start a relationship. I think we worked cuz we have lots in common and I am a hopeless romantic while he was madly in love with me. He slowly grew on me and we are happy now but we missed the fun stage of the relationship because of my evil ex.

So therefore, I have dreams of having the chasing stage of the relationship with other guys even though I would never cross the line. I doubt I can do this in real life since I am VERY faithful and HATE cheaters. So these dreams really bother me. I totally told the bf and he isn't worried and tells me he will totally chase me again if that's what I want. <3 LOVE HIM!


Dreams are mysterious. Don't know why we have them really but I feel like it helps me connect with... me and find problems in my life to make it better. Don't know if I'm over analyzing but having a bf who will work with me to ease my doubts is great. And I don't take most of my dreams seriously. Many do not make sense. Maybe there is some deep meaning but who knows? Sometimes just enjoy it.

Urban Outfitter

Made this order when they had their sale with 10% off and free shipping and return. I rarely shop Urban online since the shipping kills. I do love the store but most pieces are hit and miss. The quality is sometimes lacking for me but some are trendy. Although they looked nice, a lot of the pieces I will return.



These floral shoes were super cute. Quality was meh. At $15, I would have kept it but it was too small. People commented it runs large so I sized down. Oh well

 The sweater feels a bit cheap but looked cute. Too bad it was too short on me and made me look fat. At $20 I am returning it.

Feather extension $3. I wanted to try out the new feather trend and it was cheap. I have mixed feelings about it still. I'm not really into the Native American inspired trend. Like minnetonka, fringe, feather etc. but it might be a fun accessory and it's cheap! Kept.

Total disappointment! It looked much longer online but it was a crop top. Even so it was a super wide crop for a S. I am so returning this even though I am madly in love in mint. It was $15 I think.

Infinity scarf $14. I wanted a teal one but it sold out when I tried to order it but coral looks nice. It doesn't look good on hanger but it's super cute on and I know I said I don't love fringe but the scarf turned out okay.

Today debt:  $17

Total debt:  $72


Oh and I tried pan frying raw avocado. Not bad. Just some ingredients: butter salt sugar pepper soy sauce. Just mix and match

Waitlist #44

I knew I should have NOT apply. I was accepted to many schools and was set on the east coast. I tested my luck with a more difficult school here in the west and I was invited to interview and BAM wait-listed since Feb. So I kept my hopes up despite having no clue how many are on this list or whether these people were all desperate like me or do I even have a chance or should I give up. Holding off plans for east coast and hoping and wishing that I can be close to home. Well it all came crashing down today.

The official ranking was suppose to be in mid-May but guess they were early this year. From forums, it said that you have better knowledge after second deposit which is mid-May. I HATE how the stupid school led me on. I think wait-list is total BS if there is like at least 44 people on it, hopefully probably more fml. It's the stupid school's way of ensuring a full class if people drop out. The class is 90 max so there is no way 44 will drop. My only hope is if a good amount on wait-list and class drop but that seems impossible.

It's a tricky situation for me as if I'm moving across the country I NEED to plan. Get a car, find apartment, find roommate, pack a whole lot of clothes, buy a whole lot of new stuff. I am terrified of the snow and living without any family or friends. I do love the school and think I'll enjoy my time there but just will miss my family, friends and mostly le bf. Good experience for me to grow up but I like my bubble! West coast would have been much easier transition, just a road trip away...sigh

I think things happen for a reason. Like during high school, I was only accepted to my 3rd choice and was devastated. But my experience there allowed me to be closer to my best friends (or not), find my bf even tho I got my heart broken, meet some amazing people and had fun during college. Not that I won't anywhere else but I am glad to have met my bf so that was worth it. I hope this college would give me an unforgettable experience and land me a job.

But east coast.... man, 3 hour time difference isn't cool. Guess it's time to load up on snow gear.

Makeup- Revlon

So I had makeup and skincare stage where I spend so much money. Looking back I rarely use the products and some are not getting any love :/ I probably spend so much that I could have gotten a Chanel! (probably not but a good amount) I could throw away a hundred to try some products that I might not like. ALSO I feel like my phase ruined my skin and made it sensitive. I now stay away from most cleaning products and put bare cream and eye cream. Nowadays I try to stay away from spending too much and just buy things I will use. I don't buy foundation and if I need it I will try to get sample or drugstore. I stay away from mascara since my lashes are so thin, I rather use falsies. Most used for me is blush, eyeliner and eyeshadow and maybe lip products. Thus keeping track of spending again.

I heard great things about these Revlon lipsticks and stains. Saw a buy one get one half off at Walgreens and decide to try it out. The lipsticks were $8 and stains were $10.  I LOVED the lipsticks but the lip stains were disappointing. I didn't love it since it seem to go on uneven and so expensive! I will still use it but not a fav. The lip butters are great because it's very moisturizing and is like a very tinted lip balm. I think I'm done with lip products for now. (Hopefully)

Total cost $40
Debt: $40

Walgreens gave me free samples. I will probably never use it though.

I use to buy lots of lip products but it gets in the way of kissing so I stay away from them. I stick to stuff that don't come off like Revlon colorstay lipgloss is a fav.

I do use designer brands but now I really don't have the extra money to buy it and actually use it religiously. The only thing I will spend $ on would probably be eye concealer and eyeliners. I really need to organize my things and throw some out even if it hurts. I wish I can sell some stuff I used but it seems so unhygienic.